This is a sensitive issue for me. When I was a young teenager I was approved to hold the microphones. I was excited to tell you the truth. I thought that I was getting some recognition for all of the work that I had put in. Not that I was spending huge hours in service or any thing like that but my old man isn’t a JW and I felt like I was never taken seriously as a result. Of course I’ve always questioned the things that the WBTS taught, even from an early age, so maybe they were just picking up on my “lukewarm” temperament.
Any way, after a few months of handling the microphones on a regular basis my name suddenly disappeared from the list. I approached the speech impaired brother in charge of the sound and scheduling and he really didn’t answer me. He just kind of danced around the question.
Well at about the same time my two best JW friends for several years began shunning me. To this day I don’t know why. I think that it might have been a racial thing because they were both African American and I suspect outside influence from their schools began to have an effect on how they felt about “whitey”. I have since been able to re-establish a relationship with one of them through another mutual friend and although we don’t really see each other regularly; when we do we always have a positive experience.
But I digress. Bottom line is I was very upset when they took this “privilege” away from me and it just solidified the thought in my mind that no matter what I did I would never get ahead in their eyes.